Wednesday, December 31, 2008

nothing to me

in a few short months i plan to be beyond you.

like a taste in my mouth

i will drink the water from a separate well

and from you my system will cleanse

then the dream to kiss your crisp lips

will be but a memory

and now we stand on the hill

over looking the valley

at the bottom of the sound

the beach on the bay

when i drink beer from your lips again

we will be in a different place

my heart i place far away in tibet

take me there and fulfill its content

and by then you will mean nothing

oh its the 31st dec 2008

this year, spectacular! amazing! more to say in two thousand nine

Monday, December 29, 2008

set from sat dec 27

fascination - la roux
zombies! - designer drugs
above and beyond - the bravery
nothing is getting us anywhere - guns and bombs
htown - botany boys
my heart is set on you (louis la roche rmx) - heads we dance
program of the first part - thieves like us
happy birthday - royksopp
we gonna ride (ratatat rmx) - saigon and ugk
cracks in the lifeline - these are powers
the stars look even brighter (give me xmas time) - triobelisk and stina stjern
the energy story (original mix) - college feat. minitel rose
air wave take over by 12 12

Saturday, December 27, 2008

people want to know

where and when to catch me naked
www.flickr.com/photos/exxie_screwface

also catch the FRO olympia new years eve party... no guarantees on the nudity
all the snow is melting, make these huge slush of mess puddles. everywhere. parking lots are transformed to ice cold pools for the polar bear clubs' annual meets. i'm sleeping with a humidifier and brian nichols texted me a "merry christmas babe!" just like a writer, to text it. thats where my obsession begins and ends. my walls have been spruced up this season. gifts from diana and wil moe, make the holiday more festive. diana's vintage knit wall hangings and baso's the bottom drops out painting... classic. so i guess i cant complain about not unwrapping any thing on the actual holla day itself. my presents came in presence of loved ones...

here's a smut poem i plan to submit to trash and garnish ^_-


your legs and your ass are hanging off the bed
plale like its winter, but really you just dont go out anymore
i can see the mole above the grateful dead tattoo
makes it look like you were conceived at the show
but the head phones on your head never play
if i drape my dick in your face will you see it
or will you just continue to suck on your lollipop
how hard i would fill the space between your jaws
and play with your tits against the sheets while you
pretend not to care or notice me

dec twentieth with dj making puppy love

the killing spree - chromatics

octet (smd edit) - deerhunter

let’s reggae all night - css

tides - gatekeeper

mars (player player’s 95 jump mix) - fake blood

bedford - poison diamonds

it’s 5 (poutine dream mix 33hz &ming) - architecture in helsinki

hit the north part 1 - the fall

time for changes - faxe

the jackrabbit (rmx) - vagina power penis power
money don’t make us (dj screw trilogy) - archie lee
go on beef (mr. oizo rmx) - feadz
the star looks even brighter (give me christmas time) - triobelisk / stina stjern

it wasn’t god who made honkey tonk angels - kitty wells

good bye horses (krikor edit) - Q. lazzarus
cindy tells me - brian eno

the short weekend begins with a longing - action action

i was dancing in a lesbian bar - jonathan richman

drinking you in - the duke spirit

remember walkin’ in the sand - the shangri-las

prescilla - bat for lashes

peel some off - these are powers

violador - mkf

unknown (im really bad at research) - amazing baby

of birds, moons, and monsters (modernaire rmx) - mgmt

i’m not gonna teach (twelves rmx) - black kids

brought to you by glitch n growl and free radio olympia 98.5 olympia washington www.frolympia.org

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

snow snow everywhere

i'm learning that if i am really nice, bands and artists will give me things for free. maybe its my charm and good looks. anything else, i take for free with out regard.  im basically going to try and coerce my good british friend to give me his "rape cape". i will in return take naked photos in it, and mail it back to him, with said photos included. 


Monday, December 15, 2008

no one understands me like you do




but i have to be honest... when ever i browse other people's blogs for music, i feel really great when i find a sight that is just now posting tracks i heard about a year ago. I'd like to think i follow music like some people follow fashion, and well like i like to follow fashion, i like to be on the cutting edge of trends. I like to be the first to hear new things and know i was the one who influenced others to listen. Usually if some one is raving over something I heard about a year ago, I know they're not up to date. It crazy how some things slip past me though. But not much, no not much! I'm watching snow pile up outside! and no its not piling up my nose!
i want to be in london, where i can attend super super parties!
i mean check out there party pics! amazing! i want backdrops in my life.... BACKDROPS!!!!

repost everywhere





New Blog Post

Trash & Garnish

Click photo to be sent to the blog..



Sunday, December 14, 2008

against my better judgement

yeah i should have stayed indoors today. i normally opt to stay at home doing nothing on sundays like today, but instead, in the pursuit of happiness i went out drinking. now im just a little bit colder and a little bit sicker. i attempted productivity, but was i really? did i really do anything anyway?

smutZINE

im contributing to trash and garnish. i'm not so much a smut writer, most of my poems are based around immense drug use. however, michael holzinger decided that my smutty behavior definately qualifies me to be a smut writer, in fact i should be proficient in this area.
here's the first draft of the first smut poem. and yes, soon i will write about all smutty activity troy lumpkin and i have participated in, now that's art!!!!!!

my socks are soaked through

but the rain on my skin doesnt

bother me in the same fashion

wearing the rain is a fashion

when your nipples stand so hard

taking off my shirt to show appreciation

you address me like a desperate act

you hand me the bill stained brown

i take it and try not to act afraid

heroin laced smoke passes my lips

too tired and too cold

you're too cold to get up your

frozen winter dick the folds of my body

show my lack of aspirations

its so easy to believe you don't love me

its so easy to believe you love me

to believe that you breath spaces

between your thoughts to think of me

my heart is breaking already

the first shards have began to splinter

its a wikkid november to remember things this way

its a dead wikked winter

which means its all too cold

and alone for a mind like mine

but tomorrow it will snow

we will begin the upward slope again

we all want to inspire some one

i have a fan, he called me during my last track. he said he loves me, maybe it's for real!!!
i'm eating a chocolate orange just like my mom would give me as a kid for christmas!! i should really write my trash n garnish piece

here's your party set for dec 13 twothousand and eight, it snowed in olympia for the first day this year!

who you wit? (mano rmx) - steed lord
the turn - m.i.a.
track six - 12 12
noir desir (vivasulfer rmx) - vive le fete
human wreck (radio edit) - adult.
hi beam baby - a.d.a.m. baby!

get innocuous - lcd sound system
dirtysouf - lil flip
neeve - woolfy vs projections
don’t tell me - hank shostak
the spices of love chesty (nmedrop rmx) - lets get invisible

i want your love - chromatics
the wizard - bat for lashes

head dress - amazing baby
vw - late of the pier 

11th hour (eliot lipp rmx) - cubik & origami
this is london - dusk and blackdown
audio track 03 - geneva jecuzzi

gravity (joe and will ask? rmx) - division kent 
butterflys clumped in large groups - alphabets

move (metronomy rmx) - css
black lips - askine
a.council - clark
tight pants - ninjasonik

ambition (livyo rmx) - dj dlg and laidback luke
believe in yourself - the creatures
every cell can tell - the duke spirit
walking on a dream - empire of the sun
olympic airways (moscow rmx) - foal
headlong into the night - thieves like us
nylon (stalking butlers rmx) - gorilla gorilla gorilla and the girl

switchblade (la riots rmx) - hearts revolution

Thursday, December 11, 2008

The plan is to drink less and listen more

I'm going to seattle this weekend, basically just to see John Read, the Wiggins, play in a state I've never seen him play in before. I'm going to the Centralia hospital today to see Phil. He basically wrecked his life this time. It's the junk. I want to become a more all around aware person. So I'm really opposed to most all substances. I ate acid last weekend and short while later I snorted half a mdma capsule. It's just wearing on me. The first thing McKenzie said to me when I told him was "Oh no, don't do that". I guess its along the lines of even that exploration, isn't even exploration any more. Does that mean I am all grown up? What do I even drink for anymore. The feelings I used to try to drink away, I don't even consider feelings anymore, they're an offshoot experience of life. Plain and simple, its just a part of life. 

Sunday, December 7, 2008

I havent really been up to anything

just the usual.. here is my track selection for 12-06-2008

drug like -  action action
skillz - add n to (x)
supreme being - amazing baby *who i just had the pleasure of reading about in nylon the day the next day. maybe its because i dont really read magazine, but coincidence found itself in amazing baby!*
steady ballin - dj screw
ideas as opiates (dianita mix) - tears for fears
another land - medio mutante
in the heat of the night - pat benatar
private dancer - tina turner
windy - the association
confusion - dusk and black down (12robvz mixish)
glitter pills - health
is it medicine - the knife
little bit - lykki li 
playmate of the century - miss kitten
elizabeth (joe & will ask? 11pm remix) - mystery jets
right as rain - mr beasly
moving forward (designer drugs rmx) - protokoll
test four - sweet exorcist (black strobe rmx)
cold rythm - //TENSE//
dope boi - muffy
code 7429 - lullibies in the dark
viewers like you -  lets get invisible

Thursday, November 27, 2008

i spent a sufficient number of days in san francisco

get back to oly and find out people are taggin my shit. this kinda thing starts gang fight. skulk is stronger than ever and thats the real crew to worry about

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

broken pillz

some times i feel like a broken pill
loose members lay scattered about
on a glass mirror you take a part of me
and break me further so that i am
like a fine powder and with a gust
i am up through a straw and into your nose

a little bit of poemsstufff

sometimes when i wash my face

or let my head run under the shower

i feel like i am drowning

the anticipation is so much

sometimes i can hardly bring myself

to bath or to wash myself


i rode a bike yesterday and it hurt

i could never straighten my legs on the pedals

it was like a really long car ride

and you're sitting in the back seat

with the seat in front of you pushed all the way back

can't wait to get out and stretch your legs

can't wait to get off and stretch your legs


for the first time, on my walk from school today

i didn't mind the feel of the rain on my head

when it began to sprinkle i pulled my hood up

and then i pulled it down again. 

it was like god was washing me clean

everything before was different

Sunday, November 16, 2008

kooze control

its a repetitive occurance in my thought

recent favorite movies::
the heathers
resevoir dogs

here's the track listing for 11/15/08
ten pm till midnight pacific coast time

a means to an end - joy division
little black rocks in the sun - add n to (x)
gold digger - kanye west
I got a woman - ray charles
flossin - the cool kids
Live and die in LA - Tupac
26 basslines - benga
feather in my baseball cap - architecture in helsinki
dope fiend - dope fiend
casual friday - black leotard front
little bit - leif (lykki li cover)
crack town (hey champ rmx) - prairie cartel
inestable - medio mutante
2080 (brenmar rmx) - yeasayer
it's a fact (printed stained) mano rmx - matt and kim
I got a man - positive k
the energy story (original mix) - college ft minitel rose
electric feel (justice rmx) - mgmt
replay (justin faust rmx) - electric youth
i'm on fire - chromatics (bruce sprienstien cover)
chewing gum (mylo rmx) - annie
cold dust girl - hey champ
geneva gecuzzi live recording
these girls are dressed to kill (russ chimes rmx) - the out runners
kelly (breakbot rmx) - van she
this sweet love (prins thomas sneaky edit) - james yuill
zombies! - designer drugs
metalhead - miss kitten
half in love with elizabeth (foama rmx) - mystery jets
cry baby (royksopp's malselves memorabilia mix) - spiller
don't stop believing - journey

now back to watching Reservoir dogs

it's really foggy in olympia tonight!

Friday, November 14, 2008

i've been watching lots of my so called life

its like a total flash back to my life in the 90's. my adolesence. I never really watched television when i was younger. When I see shows like this now a days I kinda feel like I missed out in something. But then whatever, I'd rather have the influence ten years later.

I was walking home the other day from school and it was beginning to sprinkle. It was the end of almost a week of solid rain. I pulled my hood up and then I pulled it back down. For the first time in a while I actually wanted or liked the way the rain drops felt on my head. I think this was the monday after the annoying sunday where Abe showed back up. It felt like the rain was washing me clean. Washing my debts away, I wish literally. Washing the embarrassment of once more crying over the stupid boy. It's not like I really have interests in being with him, anymore. I just want resolution. I want him to know that he's been insulting to me. He called me sad. Like to my face, that he could see my emotions, and worse that he expected them to be over him.

I'm watching a True Life on sport bike stunt riders... AHMG! I'm still into that bike thing. especially with one wheel in the air!!!!

Thursday, November 13, 2008

mustache party

yea i gave some dude my fone number tonight.. and left it at that!
im trying to do more exciting and adventurous things in my life. And yes, I'm quite aware I live quite an adventurous life as it is... low and behold though, I plan to step this up! I want extraordinary, and to be honest I've only been living semi-ordinary... Not cool! . SO I plainly hit on some one tonight. gave him my number and left it at that. It's not like I wanted to do him right away. I'm well aware I'm over that part of my life. Yes, I acknowledge it's existance, but I've never been fully satisfied that way. So the likely hood that he will call is slim, but so what. I found him attractive, he really caught my eye, and that was enough for me. Diana was a great friend to go along with. I love her!!!!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

gnarly weather day dreams

I try to encourage the use process therapy on myself. Not that I've learned anything in particular with it, but i have been able to forgive the heart breakers faster than I would normally::::

Standing in the bathroom with you, I almost expected an intimate moment between the two of us. I should have known better. I should have anticipated the opiates on my brain. The incoherence in your voice and in my brain. I should have expected the cruel and unusual judgment you hold over me. OH! and your ability to see straight through my freekin soul!!

I was irritated by the abrupt clicking the broken toilet paper holder made each time i shifted my weight against it. I struggled to vocalize. Once or twice I had to reword my thoughts in my head. And even then what I wanted you to feel couldn't come out from my mouth. Or maybe subconsciously I really didn't want you to feel what I hoped you could feel. So I lied. I made it seem easier to accept. I have already accepted your inability to understand the kind of person I am. You see my depth but you read me so flat. Flat as the deepest part of me. You don't see the heights I've seen.

Monday, November 10, 2008

non existance, tracklisting and some crappy heart broken poetry

I played my first live set on saturday night. it was at the quality burrito, from one am till about two. jean asked me to cover his set while he checked out some hard core show. i was increadibly nervous, but i knew this time would come eventually, i just wasn't expecting it so soon. the live set was a variation from my radio show set ::

november 08 two thousand and eight on 98.5 fm free radio olympia
ten pm till midnight

glitchngrowl

miss broadway - belle epoque (ian carry rmx)
teenage color - college (anoraak rmx)
sweet child of mine - flat pack (mylo edit)
too high - high life
hotdog - simian mobile disco (cosmo vitelli rmx)
chain gang - publicist
when we wer young - sneaky sound system (g.l.o.v.e.s. rmx)
dance - battles
what's a girl to do - bat for lashes

dj making puppy love

dream lover - the paris sisters
apples in stereo
laura - vincent gallo
jesus wants me for a sun beam - the vaselines
minniapolis - that dog
i wish you wouldn't say that - talking heads
sometimes i wish i were a boy - lesly gore
all i can do is cry - ike and tina

glitchngowl

dreams - the cranberries
stars say no - hears of animals
nevereverever did - architecture in helsinki (yacht mix)
mouth erection - geneva jecuzzi
MDMH - add n to (x)
cross the dance floor - treasure fingers (chromeo rmx)
enjoy what you do - trackedemics (shadow dancer rmx)
shooting stars - bag raiders
heart beat - late of the pier
love to lover - joe yellow

and now something you cant attain emotionally with me, because im a hear broken heart breaker and no matter what i say to you're face, you mean nothing to me


to those who know i mean little to

you nodded your head to a beat, just maybe i played for you
you didnt leave the room even with all the energy i play for you
you call me sad, but you don't know the hills and depths of my heart
i can't bomb a hill but i've got walls covered with out planting my face
you hold me tight when you need something to stand against
when your balance is off i am steady resort
you weave your fingers into my hair like wool on a spool
the record you gave me plays over and over again
my head spins but when it rests in your hand it is calm
thanks for noticing i cry, i also bleed and some day i will die
but i don't think you're breathing or thinking the same pace as me
i walked a blister into my soul i walked it into my destiny
you carve sound out of your bass guitar, the mongols throat sing
but the vibrations are seeming to now break me
the opium in your face is a well kept pit of desperate
i cant leave with you looking at me like this

i could really tell you how many times ive cried over this but i know you only answer is to pass me the heroin pipe

and here's an art study that has nothing to do with how i feel right now
comparison:: troy vs something from will's feminest art book

and this was me on the day of the dead.. no i lost my soul a minute ago

Sunday, November 2, 2008

you're adventures arent like my adventures

and so i feel alone in this world. did i ever mention my passion towards being a disgruntled citizen? well, the disco doesn't play in my head twenty four seven like we would appreciate. and in the mean time, i am inundated with irritations from the world around me. i dont think it is favor of my health. i had a great adventure this halloween. and to be honest i only wanted brooke by my side most the time. no one else makes things that don't make sense tolerable. the rest of everything else, i just dont get. i heart you brooke n the adventures aren't as grand with out you...

things about not doing drugs:
you forget after seven years of heavy substance abuse, the little things. like the urgency for a jug of oj the morning after inducing extacy into your system. now you wake up with a desire to jump out of the nearest building, and only later does it hit you that maybe this is suppossed to be this way. that there's no way you can go on living the same with the subtraction of neurons in your brain that once made it happy place. so why don't you give up? give up...

i made pumkin soup today, its dia de los muertos by the way. you know how i love spending quality time in a kitchen making loving substanence. but its a knife to the heart when it goes unappreciated. i almost feel like i felt after food not bombs under i forty five bridge and getting a banana peel thrown in my face.. ok that was exageration! but some activists have little appreciation for things that come from the heart... i guess maybe thats my own biased interpertation. but really when was the last time one of them told me i was ok. just ok how i am..

this is going no where you should stop reading

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

im a felon :: i voted

here's a break down of how certain states have dealt with felons and reinstating their right to vote
http://www.aclu.org/votingrights/exoffenders/statelegispolicy2007.html

check it out! a lot of felons are not aware that they can vote after completing their sentence! tell anyone you know who may be a felon to check this page out and see if they are eligible!!!!!! and don't forget to vote for OBAMA!!!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

disco dust

sundays are good days to sit around and listen to some good music
disco dust is full of it, in fact its a blog i aspire to be like. but of course i dont have that much ambition

Saturday, October 25, 2008

DIY EGL by BCB

This is going to be a lot... I think. I am searching my Lolita D.I.Y. area and I know I am going to find to many things. haha. Everything is so cute <3>Mini Top Hats

1. http://community. livejournal. com/egl/4918469. html

2. http://community. livejournal. com/egl/3885314. html

in number two she used this Pattern.
http://www. cynthiahoweminiatures. com/hatmaking1. htm

It might be easier to just buy a doll one. We will see prices.

Photos to Reference....




















Jesus this is awesome
http://www. vertetsable. com/demos_ruffs. htm

DIY Bows, you can make them bigger
http://community. livejournal. com/egl/3326043. html

if you did a bow headdress you could make the flowers match the show clips. pale pastel yellow or teal green.






Show Clips This would be cute. You can make felt ones or color fake flowers like she did but math your pettie. Maybe yellow pale flowers.. that would go great with the teal color of your pettiecoat!

http://community. livejournal. com/egl/11324386. html


Making Rings and you can even use the Caulk on the top hat to make it look like icing!!!
we have to try this!


you can use http://babelfish. yahoo. com/ to translate the page links

http://community. livejournal. com/egl/11662025. html

Making Macarons, You can put these on rings or a necklace or pile them on a top hat!

http://community. livejournal. com/egl/11224061. html

Tips
http://community. livejournal. com/egl/11228487. html

I want a president that can bust a move

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

wednesday deejayys VIZUAL NOIZE battle






wendesday vizual deejayyy

watch in order
then send me your battle
i will be posting your replies





something i read about

at: http://www.luckymojo.com/raccoonpenis.html
Back in October, 1995, Jim Hudnall posed a question in alt.lucky.w about raccoon penis bones. He said that Mick Jagger's partner Jeri Hall had mentioned in an interview that when she was growing up in Texas, boys gave raccoon penis bones to girls they liked as a form of love token or simple love spell. Jim said he had never heard of penis bones before and wondered if raccoons really had them.

I responded that Jeri Hall was right -- raccoons do have penis bones, although they are by no means the only species with such bones. (For instance, seals, walruses and whales have them too, and these large penis bones, called oosiks by the Inuit, are used for making sled dog harness parts.) The scientific name for these bones is os penis ("penis bone" in Latin") and among their many common names are "love bone," "pecker bone," "coon dong" "possum prick," Texas toothpick," "mountain man toothpick" and "baculum" (Latin for "little rod"). More to the point of Jim's query, though, i can testify from personal experience that raccoon penis bones were used as charms and curios among white farm boys and men of the Missouri Ozarks (in south-central Missouri, near the Arkansas line) during the 10 years i lived there in the 1970s-80s.

Soon after my then-partner Peter Yronwode and i moved to the Ozarks in 1972, we were told by a couple of local farmers that the proper way to prepare a pecker bone was to boil it clean and to tie a piece of red thread or string around it and give it to one's girlfriend to wear as a necklace.

Being non-hunting hippies, we made our charms from the penis bones of freshly road-killed male coons. (We picked up road-kills anyway because we ate the meat and tanned the furs and sold the mittens and purses we made therefrom.) I should also note that rather than dedicate these love bones to the furtherance of overpopulated HUMANITY, we placed them by our pond, where visiting RACCOONS would benefit from the resultant sexual potency and fertility among their own species.

Both Barry Carroll and Larry Schroeder of Austin, Texas, reported that the bones were sold there locally under the name "Texas toothpicks" and kindly donated samples.

Early in 1996, my co-worker Susie Bosselmann came into my office and saw my stuff and -- to my surprise, as she is a very "fussy" person who abhors bugs and spiders -- she said, "Ooh, lookie! You've got coon dongs!" She was pointing to the penis bones Larry and Barry had sent to me.

Susie is in her 60s and she grew up in Oklahoma, an area contiguous with Missouri and Texas. I had thought that the wearing of raccoon penis bones was limited to the Midwest, but she expanded my horizons when she said that she and her husband had recently been at a gun show in Kentucky and had seen "a beautiful coon dong necklace, with hundreds of 'em strung together, just like a Cherokee Indian ceremonial necklace." She would have bought it but it was too expensive, she said. I asked her why someone would make a coon dong necklace, and she said, "Well, what ELSE can ya do with 'em?"

Obviously, the use of raccoon penis bones as sex amulets or in love spells was not known to Susie, but just to be sure, i asked her if she'd ever heard them called love bones or heard of boys giving them to their girlfriends. She said, "No, we just made necklaces out of them."

In May, 1996, Michael Redman added something new on the subect: the use of the raccoon penis bone as a gambler's charm. Here's what he said:

Just got back from New Orleans for my umpteenth Jazz Fest visit & spent some extended time in the Voodoo Museum in the Quarter. As touristy as this place is, there were several exhibits of interest. Did notice a raccoon penis bone there marked "Lucky for gamblers."

Other readers have written in and added much lore -- about a gambling uncle in the South who wrapped his coon dong in a ten dollar bill before going out to play cards of an evening, a grandfather who wore a "possum prick" bone as a watch fob, a jeweler who caps the bones with sterling silver and sells them as necklace pendants, and a family which has owned a "mountain toothpick" for years. Scott Stauffer, a taxidermist in Michigan, writes, "I have had several requests for raccoon penis necklaces. Thinking this to be strange, I asked as to the reason one would want to wear such a thing. Up here the general consensus is that 'You're not cool unless you're hangin.' No red ribbons or gifts to girl friends; the guys wear them, mostly, it seems, for luck. A jeweler's clasp is glued to the straight end and it is worn on a length of gold chain. Although strange, they are strikingly handsome when boiled and pollished."

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

for you

at one point i would swoon for you
spill my heart out in dedication for you
now i sew stitches where i am splitting
now my heart is breaking for you
picking up pieces and gluing together
like ceramic tiles i am a mosaic for you

Techni Colour Zoo






Quotable Animals - by Oh! Pony

these bite sized creatures can be found roaming the houston area. bringing Oh! Pony's colour charm to a street corner near you!

promethazine

not quite.
really i drank a bunch of nyquil and drove to school because i couldn't sleep. i don't know what i am doing here. looking around at all of the people i feel on a whole other level. my face feels it's squished flat against a wall and drips down like excess paint. no thats the snot in my nose. i think this recent lapse in immunity is due to my recent excursions this weekend. all including, hopping a fence resulting in welted bruises on my thighs, eating lsd on a sweet tart, staying out till all odd hours of the night committing mischievous acts. yea lately ive behaved myself but this weekend was extravagent and with the mental stress i've been encurring i don't believe it was the best idea for myself. now i sip on the syzzurp and and and think about chop n screw

Saturday, October 18, 2008

FRO FRO A GO GO

FRO FRO A GO GO is saturday november first
the day after halloween
that's right dia de los muertos

The Pasties
Razz M'Tazz
A Million Years Ago
Thee Nextdoor Neighbors
King Mob
Funerot

at the haunted Solid Gold House
419 Boulevard Road SE
Boulevard & Pacific in Oly

6pm on the freakin' dot.
all-ages
$5-$10 sliding scale

freakouts, treats, dancing, beer, bands, candy, creepy stuff, ghost stories, free radio olympia

All Images taken in one night

Dual from Houston,TX hits the unurban streets of olympia
somebody's wreck, my play ground
give yourself unurban face tattoos
OFS Free Wall Narcoleptics Always Wonder

Friday, October 17, 2008

worst day ever continued

i went home from the hospital around two and got to bed around three. I woke up at 7:30 picked my grandmother up from the hospital. made her breakfast, went to take my math exam. I should have studied fractions better as well as a few other things. I probably made a D. Now I go pick up my grandma's script and then off to biology and piano. the worst day evar! seriously! at least there's usher's love in this club on the radio

at the hospital at one am

waiting for my grandma to feel better. its hard to explain the psychological neurosis i experience every time I enter this sterile environment. haunting memories flood my cranial membrane. needles and blood and blood and needles. and illigetimate excuses. and broken promises. and a glimmer of hope in ever corner paired opposite the grim reaper. i do not explain the conflict i feel on these grounds that heaven and earth wage wars. 

paul said i used my psychic powers this week. we were thinking about his house keys at the same time. i remember it about tuesday morning that i should return to him his house keys since i have been too busy to perform any of my previous services. i remember sending mike an instant message regarding this. paul today mentioned that he had the same feelings that morning and when he met mike in the office mike delivered my message verbally. but he clearly stated he had the premonition before the verbal message. meaning i used my psychic abilities and the verbal message was quite unneccassary. paul is also trying to give me his beta fish. its quite a beautiful creature. maroon. delicate satiny fabric of fins to swim with. i feel like i would not give him a good home. but i long for companionship and he's offered him openly. i think i should accept this new friend into my life. 

i want to go home tonight to some one to cuddle with. some one who's arms will hold me to rest in. and then i can be at peace.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

sticker factory

order your stickers today by contacting me
or through
www.bomit.com

also visit Glitch N Growl on deviant art
www.consumerfeardept.deviantart.com

if i were in NY this is what i'd be doing

EVERY​WHERE​ IS NOWHE​RE EVERY​WHERE​
is the title​ of this proje​ct based​ on a lyric​ by the band Legen​ds.​

in a stora​ge conta​iner behin​d the new museu​m (​cryst​ie btw stant​on/​ rivin​gton)​ i will be creat​ing a kind of isola​tion tank where​by elimi​natin​g certa​in sense​s,​ other​s thriv​e.​ for 3 days peopl​e will enter​ into a dark space​,​ lay down on the floor​,​ the doors​ will shut and they will hear a live perfo​rmanc​e of spont​aneou​s music​ aroun​d them for 15 or 30 minut​e durat​ions in total​ darkn​ess.​ the music​ians will be varie​d and in some circu​mstan​ces they'​ll be stran​gers,​ so the music​ will be creat​ed witho​ut any visua​l refer​ences​ and hopef​ully enhan​ced freed​om.​ upon leavi​ng the space​,​ parti​cipan​ts will recei​ve hand paint​ed aura drawi​ngs,​ sugge​sting​ that their​ spiri​t had been modif​ied by the exper​ience​.​

FRIDA​Y,​ SATUR​DAY AND SUNDA​Y
OCTOB​ER 17-​19,​ 2008

pleas​e conta​ct maya hayuk​ to sched​ule your parti​cipat​ion as a music​ maker​,​ or just stop by. there​ will total​ly be stuff​ to play with,​ and we can alway​s use more.​
mayah​ayuk@​gmail​.​com
646-​256-​8730

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

domestica

dinner tonight

brown sugar acorn squash with sausage
key lime pie

super excited.

maybe we'll choke on it, maybe we'll just be friends

i splurged on a pair of shoes. i paid over a hundred dollars for a pair of wrap up boots by toms. i normally only buy used shoes for cheap cheap. so the first night i was wearing them, i puked all over them. irony? maybe.

im laying on one of my leopard print velvet pillows.  my feet are tucked under my bunny jacket. i'd like to say something to PETA and vegans who think fur is murder. this jacket is the best jacket in my life. yeah the stitching has come undone in the pockets and yeah its not good to wear in the rain. but i didnt kill the bunnies. i didnt pay for the bunnies to die. it was a gift and i felt obliged to accept. when some one buys you a five hundred dollar jacket out of love, your morals may sway. justification. indians wore fur. i feel very natural in it. and spiritually i am offering those bunnies a certified good home. i know those bunnies are doing their best keeping me warm and i am eternally grateful. in return, they know their life was not fleeting and was appreciated and that spiritually i respect and give thanks to them. spiritually i consider it a mutual agreement. 

i know things so nice don't come into my life by accident. its because of hard work, either by me or the people around me. i hope to assume that the people around me all have the best of intentions, and i've often learned the awfully hard way, that very few people actually do. but maybe its because i see too much in people, not just in front of me, but their full potential too. i think i focus too much on people's potential and often they don't focus and fall short. it's their choice to live to their potential. i have my own to worry about. 

maybe that was my soul i sold a while ago

Monday, October 13, 2008

history, sympathy, idealism, consistancy, social commentary

do you really know me. i assure you, all you know is a half truth lie. i take whats easy to my spirituality. meaning you should never trust me. integrity, continuity, all of these are facade. when i eat, i think of nothing. i wish to digest the most minimal substances of quality. and alone to my own devices i cannot .... intelligible tangibility, i wish to give you up. you know i dont know enough for my own species
history: the most significant and consistent album of my adolescence was radio head's - kid a. it was the first album i listened to with such indie extremes and traditional composition. it was the first outside box i was obsessed with. i still remember seth, desiree's friend who burned that cd for me. he didnt even know. 
history 2: freaks. annie of matt and annie was the first to rave about this feature film. this evening at the le voyeur.  oh the social commentary necessary for comprehension. and how the 1930's directors were so precise with their ability to maintain our function of humanity and show us our deepest darkest humiliations and irregularities. and people thought the wizard of oz was good for economic commentary

everything i feel is broken and i would rather split it apart then cast it back together again. but you make me feel like i have no control over their give or say. and when they take me apart, i will be so strewn about, they know not the order to put me together again. the best will be with the seams you sew me together again. pulling my flesh side to side. in satin ribbons you stretch to suit me. with out defiance my cells know better to not abide

Sunday, October 12, 2008

wish list

"Poverty Sucks" necklaces are available for purchase through the
"Necklace" section of www. leviticusjewelry. com for $20!


from the BWS




Supayana on etsy
from starrocket.com

also, a membership to supercult.com

GNG on air

i walked into the station tonight and i was immediately brought back to corey's house in sugar land. the smell and familiar track playing. visual noize was on air. i think it was a pink floyd song. ill have to ask him to be sure. incense in the air were the most astonishing similarity. it was increadibly distinct. i was taken back at first. so much time has passed since i was in that place in my life.  i dont know what to make of it, or should i make anything at all? really, probably not. but i dont normally have such distinct reactions like that. it was like a complete hallucination of time orientation. all of a sudden i was sixteen again... i dont know if i liked it


here is part of the set list for the evening, the rest is a mystery... unless you were listening

Im a pimp - mike jones ft lil keke

random firl - late of the pier

cloverland - dj screw

rolling raj deep - dusk and balckdown

no more long years (radioclit edit) - matt and kim

plastic doll -  dharma

electric feel - MGMT

gang bang - MKF

get down ft baby - lil wayne chopped n screwed

diamonds - kanye west ratatat edit

self-obsessed and sexxee - sonic youth

2080 - yeasayer brenmar edit

baby said - hot chip robbwhy edit

is it medicine - the knife

art bitch - css

give up - young love

moon machine - jean marc jarre

dont curse - heavy d

suicidal thoughts - the notorious B.I.G.

whats a girl to do - christina



Saturday, October 11, 2008

the message is love

boondocks photobooth

http://www.myspace.com/rlrphoto











Listenin to Jackie Wilson right now, dreamin of easy livin. I wish I smoked cigarettes some days. I would sit on my patio with a blanket and listen to JW through the screen door, inhaling sweet tobacco. Instead I sit on my bed where its warm and smoke some ganj. Same lifestyle, just different life.

obama

angelo badalamenti

you're sitting naked on your bed. notes from lost highway drift around the room as if you're in the grand elevator of a hotel of marble and gold trimmings. you lift the mirror up to your face and when you see your own eyes looking back at you, you wink to your reflection to return the same. the brisk washington fall air is carried through your window, and your flesh rises and shakes with interest in the spirit carried with it. you balance the mirror in your left hand and bring the straw to your nose with your right. exhaling another measure of music drifts by. inhaling your eyelids swell closed. you heavily plop your head against the head board of the bed. the embellished gypsy shall draped on the head board is pulled down around your shoulders with your head sinking into it. like you're plunged into water backwards, you can feel water cradle your neck first. the drifting acid jazz brings you back to your room again, rather than allowing you to be completely submerged in your minds puddle. the girl in the chair exhales a sigh of disgust, the record needle picks itself up and she lights the cigarette. its base stained red from her lips. "I feel sickly alive tonight," she manages to escape from her mouth, her lips still clasping the cigarette. You look at her from the corner of your eye, one eyebrow raised and your lip lifts with the muscles in your face expressing the disgust she brings splits open your mind's landscape with her subtle voice.

Friday, October 10, 2008

never gonna give you up - barry white

Uh...
Oh, baby
Oh, baby (Keep on)
Come on, baby (Keep on doin’ it, right on)
Mmm, mmm, mmm (Right on doin’ it)
You got it together (Baby, keep on)
Oh, you got it together, baby (Right on, keep on doin’ it)
Not yet, baby, oh, not yet
Mmm, mmm (My-my baby, keep on)
I swear you got it together, baby (Keep on, keep on)

Whatever, whatever
Girl, I’ll do
Forever and ever, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I’ll see you through

I’ve got to keep you pleased
In every way I can
Gonna give you all of me
As much as you can stand

Make love to you right now
That’s all I want to do
I know you need it, girl
And you know I need it, too

‘Cause I found
What the world is searching for
Here, right here, my dear
I don’t have to look no more

And, oh, my babe
I hoped and I prayed
For someone just like you
To make me feel the way you do

Never, never gonna give you up
I’m never, ever gonna stop
Not the way I feel about you
Girl, I just can’t live without you

I’m never, ever gonna quit
‘Cause quittin’ just ain’t my stick
I’m gonna stay right here with you
Do all the things you want me to

Whatever you want
Girl, you got
And whatever you need
I don’t want to see you without it

You’ve given me much more
Than words could ever say
And oh, my dear, I’ll be right here
Until my dyin’ day

I don’t know just how to say
All the things I feel
I just know that I love you so
And it gives me such a thrill

‘Cause I found
What this world is searching for
Here, right here, my dear
I don’t have to look no more

And all of my days
I hoped and I prayed
For someone just like you
To make me feel the way you do

I’m never, never gonna give you up
I’m never, ever gonna stop
Stop the way I feel about you
Girl, I just can’t live without you

I’m never, ever gonna quit
‘Cause quittin’ just ain’t my stick
I’m gonna stay right here with you
Do all the things you want me to

Oh, I’m never gonna give you up
I’m never, ever gonna stop
All the things I feel about you
Girl, I just can’t live without you

I’m never, ever gonna quit
‘Cause quittin’ just ain’t my stick
I’m gonna stay right here with you
Do all the things you want me to

Thursday, October 9, 2008