Saturday, April 26, 2014

I guess I have a blog for a reason

mostly to tell people all the things I want to tell them but are too rude to say to their faces. FUCK YOU ALL! sometimes I am definately from Tejas. I  can't fucking stand my friends sometimes but I love them to death. They make me. Sometimes it's just people in general, the consciousness is too much. I completely understand that nothing I feel means anything. And yet I'm constantly attracted to having these people in my life. It's how they make me feel. In  a good way. 

Sunday, April 20, 2014

performance arts

are a way to live the light for because if you don't shine bright enough you cant even see.

this hitt really close to home. so many levels. as an addict. as a performer! i need to get back to my roots....

Friday, April 18, 2014

On the Quest... and Meds

sometimes, it's that I'm on the quest for meds... sometimes.
I was first prescribed medicine for mood swings when I was 16. I was on a plethora of pills. Something to help my arthritis in my back (I know, at 16 !!!) something to help my sleep and something to help my mood swings. By the time I was 19 I didn't really feel anything at all. Looking back it is all kind of funny. I was a teenager. Things change, your body changes, there are growth spurts and hormones all running a muck of what you were once used to. My parent's answer was to medicate me. Too bad we couldn't have conceived of medical marijuana in the state of Texas ten years ago. I am surprised to see legislation with that happening all over America now. I am also learning more and more about other natural pathic medicines to help with my conditions. A little over a week ago I had another nasty case of the mania bi-polar mood swings that I have been a silent sufferer from for the last ten years. Of course not so silent if you could hear the things I say when I'm afflicted.

.... I stayed the course though. There's no way this chica is gona decalcify her penial gland while taking prescription pills.