it was like falling asleep into a dream.
every time i wake up im in a different place than before.
a different time, a different person.
and when i go to bed, i dream of this consistent reality
where nothing feels right and im not really me
i can see every life i lived before
none of them carried the hurt this life carries
what did i do to make myself forget
when will i wake up from this dream and find my niche