do i own my body?

i could contain in my brain

my ownership over my own body

but i do not even own my brain

at this point in my life

muscle memory is a more consistent truth

at this point in my life

if i owned my own body would i still feel alone,

cold pain, that will not cease

i am alone staring at the ghost in the wall

drifting in between a memory and history

listening to the strain in my heart beat

i do not have a way of being free, with out constraint

i dont have much outside myself that makes me complete

ten minutes on a wall, is like ten minutes with out heroin

thank god i've already gone through with drawl

give me freedom

or give me death...

but right now, alone, i'd rather die.

i can't pretend enough

but right now, i'd rather be alone

than to know the emptiness in my heart with out you.