valentines

my heart is fucking somewhere fucking else

i didn't think i would fall so quickly in love with some one else

this felt so easy, like slipping on old shoe

but its so fucking frustrating, because there is nothing tangeable here
only an idea
an idea of love and a memory
it makes me absolutely sick to my stomach

it makes my heart hurt
and my head hurts too

maybe none of this is suppossed to happen the way i would want it to.