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After three days of a ten day meditation course, I got indegestion to an insane degree, thought I was dying, and was sent home. I just signed back up again for the course in dallas texas. I hope to include this into my long texas trip. I mean we can only do so much in one month in texas, we might as well make it good.

the day i left vipassana day 3

track selection for free radio olympia ten pm till 12 midnight

no more long years (radio clit rmx) - frankie chan

tu connais les chanson - bitchee bitchee ya ya ya

melody - blonde redhead

lets make this a moment to remember - chromatics

bruises - chairlift

high school poem - the knife

swordfish hotkiss night - empire of the sun

the past between us rmx) - an experiment on a bird in an air pump

triceratops - health

pda - interpol

totem on the timeline - klaxons

come around (feat. timberland) - m.i.a.

graveyard girl - M83

pretty tall girls - poni hoax

three kings (ratatat rmx) - slim thug, t.i., bun b

forest of legs II  - redbear.

find my soul (holy fuck remix) - sally shapiro

star power - sonic youth

i believe - simian mobile disco

sunrise - yeasayer

the star looks even brighter (give me christmas time triobelisk rmx) - stina sterjn

minors at nite (still sick) - adult.

photographing courtenay in priest point park

best day ever!

music: la roux, sally shapiro, tiger baby, glass candy, chromatics, and classical composers

weather : rainy all morning, snow in the after noon

movies : based on very well written and acclaimed novels

fashion : white lace dress, black knit leggins, burgandy cardigan, chanel glasses, leopard head wrap, gold lace heart earrings, tweed nike kicks

read: bukowski - the most beautiful woman in town

writing : showmancy short narrative

sitting : by the fire look out over the muddy blue bay

drinking : coffee, two creams three sugars

cooking: roast on top of carrots, shallots, potatoes

art to enjoy by : sonya gracia and rudy fig

poem of today's week

choices to take back and reasons to regret

letting him call from my number

saying yes to your stupid question

taking that tequila shot from you

going into the men’s bath room

letting you into see the rest of me

you close the door behind you

i put the toilet seat down to sit

you’re too afraid to kiss me

maybe it won’t be able to last

but you take a picture any way

to keep your point of view of me



you write my name on that wall

next to your heart for all to see

like a public display of affection

my ways of love are incomparable

no doubt i can only disappoint you

i can feel the fear you feed to me

slow and steady to avoid over dose

so i continue to lust for more

just as soon as i’ve had too much

you will unwind every thread in me

till i’ve unbound myself completely



should i have believed all of you

your elaborate reasons to why

i so easily accept your direction

a loss to my natural discriminations
to keep myself wound so close
you broke skin to peel me apart

just to leave me draped in wounds

your obscure and obscene ghost
of an art piece you meant to leave

mid marchish

things to think about!
tonight playing music at the quality burrito was great, i didn't see people i expected to see, and i saw people i never expected to! it was truly fated. yeah i ran out of different bands to play by the end of the four hours, but i didnt repeat any tracks. i may be alone in this place and the fight for a soul mate is fleeting to me, but im have the best time of my life and im in a place i never really considered being and its taken so long to get here, but now, peace, its here at last at least

ack gag!

so before in my life i allowed my self certain little obsessions. Something I was in no way prepared to allow myself these days. i am almost lost at a point that i believe, it may not be worth it to myself to express my true self. so far i have detached myself from anything that feels natural. maybe its all wrong, maybe i am too experienced to have an exploratory experience ever again.