i maybe think its my head exploding

the sun is coming down through the clouds in the west, with the rain, these are perfect rainbow conditions. I often view olympia as a hotspot for rainbows. never in my life have i lived under such frequent, prefect, and often double rainbows. both ends with in thurston county limits. regardless wether or not a rainbow may occur today, its often, but not THAT often. I love watching the line of horizon the tops of the evergreens make, cutting into the clouds in the sky. so here's the point of view: despite the forewarning sense of failure that will come over me if don't get into tesc and must complete one more quarter at the south puget sound cc, despite being entirely alone in my mental journey, despite my lack of appetite towards social interaction and time outside, despite my lack of attendance at school and at dance parties, despite my lack of substance intake and abuse... i am having the time of my life.... breath.... i am listening to the most influential and exploratory music ive ever heard in my entire life. my heart seems to break nearly every single day. and in the place of the fracture i am mended by a new sound blowing my mind. i need to expose this experience to the world through an artistic outlet, which is why i want to be at evergreen. which is why i need a studio, which is why i need to see people.

my recent playlist

make experiments with playlists, sort of comes with the djing territory (free radio olympia 98.5)

:

adult.
amazing baby
bat for lashes
be your own pet
the bravery
catpower
chairlift
chromatics
the cranberries
the duke spirit
eisley
empire of the sun
geneva jacuzzie
glass candy
goldfrapp
hearts of animals
hearts revolution
interpol
julie ruin
the knife
ladyhawke
late of the pier
le tigre
lykki li
metric
Mgmt
New Young Pony Club
Redbear.
Sally Shapiro
sonic youth
steed lord
stereo lab
the stranglers
these are powers
thieves like us
tom tom club
triobelisk
uffie
the vaselines
walter meego
yeasayer

this should get me through the next few days or so, then time to change it up again.

thanx for the influx

i'd like to post a poem every week

every day really, but i believe that could be excessive.
im trying not to get ahead of my self. i have the best camp ever coming up.

first poem

you talk to me slowly

about elliot smith

his six albums

before i ever listened



and i can’t breath

every time i step out
side of inside of me

you say it may be mold allergies


it may be wrong

the way this seems to me

all it was, you were

slow talking to me

lifeless lifelike

i spent at least a week in bed plus a few days.
sprained my ankle bleehhhhhh

today though courtenay came to visit and brought me out and we walked underneath a double rainbow to marathon lake. it was a really great afternoon. sunset at the bread peddler with a glass of chardonnay.

i get frustrated

with my situation in life.. all too often. i try to think of all the different ways i can run away from it. i want to be carefree enough to feel safe to go on the road. i want to be that person who can choose from their treasured belongings and take with them only the necessities and never look back. never be a problem for any one again

fur coat and yves st laurent

my recent sets

ughhkk im behind on a bunch of things.. djing the quality burrito tonight here's what i played the last two weeks on free radio olympia

jan 31 2009
dolla sign - stush
beeper remix - the cool kids
inside lookin out (prod.by jerzey) - trimski
getchya hands up - esg and slim thug
cloverland (dj screwed up) - botany boys
the rockit - gorillaz
valient - look daggers
underground - necro
microphone murderer - notorious BIG
crimson and clover - prince
$20 - MIA
Wachadoin? - NASA ft MIA
Face 2 Face - B.B. Manik
I - altrbeat
crunked up - benga
concrete streets - dusk and black down
mind playin tricks on me - geto boys
tha freestyle kind award - lil flip
i got flow - lil flip
la desciple - eligh and magi presents the brother's grime
cds and lps - fat pat
the plannit - three meloncholy gypsys
drive slow - GLC Kany West and Paul Wall
three kings - slim thug, t.i., & bun b (ratatat rmx)
track 11 - pickture one
boys love girls - kano
celebrate - skepta scratchy jet le flowdan
gash ft lady clam - son of vader
i luv you - dizee rascal
bounce and turn - dj screw
rules and regulations - roll deep
pussy monster - lil wayne
arpegiateur - leon - jean marie
timbs- leif

feb 7 2009
caddu baycat - bamba j fall
FYUZ - Add N to (X)
believe achieve - css
y control - baron von luxury
fuck friend - bitchee bitchee ya ya ya
bruises - chairlift
swordfish hotkiss night - empire of the sun
100% dbird - an experiment on a bird in the air pump
pleasure - benga
take me away (ill skillz rmx) - dieselboy
ask for trim (prod by mega) - trimski
south side ft lil keke - dj screw
cocaine ft rick ross - UGK
3 men marching - 3 melancholy gypsys
grime kid - wiley
heat up the night - ooah
track 11 aeiou - diplo and triple double
something wrong - leon-jean marie
emerald city - cassia
air war - crystal castles
elder memory - alphabets
eyes open - the gossip
ce jeu (triobelisk rmx) - yelle
its a fact (printed stained) (mano rmx ft hollywood holt) - matt & kim
portion of four weeks to wife her - neon skullz mix